Anonymous asked: ok that friend of laurens who messaged you is a total bitch. the entire message was condescending and the whole mood of the message had "get over it" written all over it. the little compliments she through in were stale and forced. she clearly has no clue what it's like to be heartbroken or to be depressed. you have every right to be sad and you have every right to post whatever you want. ignore people like that.

thank you, i do have every right to be sad and post whatever i want but who ever she is, she is still right on a bunch of things. everyone goes through hard times eventually and one day lauren is also going to feel how i’m feeling right now but these things that happen to us in our lives shape us into the person we end up becoming and yes i have every right to be sad but sooner or later you have to pick yourself up, you might not ever get over it but you have to find a way to get through it. i just dont think i’m strong enough for myself to be able to pick myself up just yet, all i need is a little more time :(

Anonymous asked: are always changing. She loved you with all her heart, but people and feelings change uncontrollably and its hard to but it has to be accepted. You should be out living your life right now and making a fresh start in your life instead of spending it hating your life & posting it allover tumblr. We all feel for you and care about you, but its been going to far. Its been holding Lauren back from being fully happy because they bring her down, and its holding yousrself back by only (PART 4)

trust me i’m trying to get out of the house and live my life as much as i can but i have never had many friends and even the ones that i do have dont understand my situation and how much pain i’ve actually been going through. but dont tell me that i dont have my own right to post whatever i’m feeling because i do… and i cant help that it might bother lauren, she must understand that i cant just erase her from my mind whenever i want to :(. i’m trying to let go and i agree that i have to let her go and let her be who she is and i swear i’m trying to, i really am but i get lonely alot and when i am i think of her and i go on tumblr and try to pour out my feelings into my tumblr so i dont have to leave all those thoughts running through my head. sometimes i cant help cutting. before lauren i was so lonely and i used to cut all the time and then she came into my life and made me feel something that i have never felt in my life before, i felt truly loved for the person i am. i didnt know how to deal with how happy i was because of her. then one day all of that just disappeared suddenly to me when she said she wanted a break. i lost everything that made me happy and i went straight back to the phase i was in before i met lauren, so you have to understand that sometimes i cant control my feelings and i resort back to cutting which used to be my only way of dealing with things… i just miss feeling loved, by anyone really :(. i’m really trying to get over lauren, i’m really trying to for myself and for her sake too, i’m doing everything i can :(

Anonymous asked: that was part 2... about you Cody. Second, Lauren is on that list. She still cares about you, just not in the way you may hope anymore. You’re 18/19 and are at the point in your life to get it started, make it, and love it. You have the chance at that age to create your brand new life and you need to take that advantage. Lauren on the other hand is 15, shes so young and has a lot of time to still discover herself and figure out what she wants. Shes a teenage girl, and they (PART 3)

Anonymous asked: You have a lot of good traits about you and you need to focus on those and move on. Falling in love and having your heart broken is a terrible feeling, but it isn’t the worst… it would be selfish to think so. You have a family who loves you and only want to see you happy and enjoying the love they helped provide you with and when you aren’t, they hurt too. Please think about everything and everyone when you are self-loathing and harming yourself, add me to the long list of people who truly care

Anonymous asked: Cody, im not here to bitch. im on of lauren's close friends and please just read this. first of all, please stop cutting. i have dealt with cutting myself because i honestly felt my life could not go anymore down hill. i rarely do it anymore but you have to realize there are things in life that are worth it, & you dont deserve the added on pain you are giving yourself. cutting is serious & painful in many ways but not worth it. if you feel crappy right now and worthless, you arent. (PART 1)

Anonymous asked: i heard you and katherine were hanging out a little bit ago, is that true? do you like her at all?

actually i was with a bunch of friends, its not like i just hungout with her. but no, i still completely love lauren and katherine is a friggen angel and i’d never be able to get her anyways lol :p

Anonymous asked: chance. she is giving up on what i believe will be the best times of her life and i dont want to sound rude to her but its kind of insulting how she can give up on your love for one another meanwhile every other single girl our age is looking to be treated and loved exactly like you did for her! :( i'm so sorry you have to go through this but trust me, i do believe that one day she will come around and see how perfect you are! <3 keep your head up cody, you're truly amazing <3

wow omg this made me cry so much :’( i hope that everything you said is right. i know i treated her perfectly and i know that no other guy will ever love her more then i love her. i think she just wants to live her life right now and not have to worry about being in a serious relationship. i do believe she still has feelings for me and loves me to a point. i hope she comes around eventually cause i would do absolutely anything for her and no other guy can say that about her. i wish she gave me another chance and i’ll keep wishing until the day that i do. i still believe that we are soulmates and you dont give up on your soulmate so i’m not going to :( thank you so much for this, i wish you weren’t anon so i could actually talk to you because someone else saying this meant absolutely everything! thank you so much :’( <3

Anonymous asked: i know you and lauren both personallyand i'm one of lauren's best friends, and i believe that she will one day realize how amazing you treated her, how not one other guy will treat her as perfect as you did. i believe she will one day miss you so much that she will want you back, she'll want to kiss you and love you and be able to call you hers again. a bunch of my friends all feel the same way, we dont know why lauren would just give up on perfect love without even giving it another... (part 1)